Today.

Today I marry my hero.

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One more day.

One more day, my last day to be a Spiker!

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Two days.

Knowledge is knowing a tomato is a fruit, Wisdom is putting it in a fruit salad.

Check, check and check. Everything is done, now it can just happen. Aaron and I are more in love than ever, and we are every excited.

If there is one thing that I enjoy it is reminiscing alone, I walked around my old youth room a couple of times tonight. I recalled various events that had happened in that very room, some happy, some sad. Thousands of tears were shed in joy and in grief. Many, many prayers lifted up. Lessons were learned. Friendships were made, some were injured and one was broken. There are some new names on the walls and mine was painted over. I moved on. I am starting a new phase in life and I would not change anything that has happened to me in my life up to this point.

In two days, I will have a new last name, new husband, new life, new family, new house, the list goes on. PURE JOY. 

Trust me when I say that this year has been a great year of many changes and I can think of twelve people who would whole-heartedly agree with me.

2010 will go down in my history as a turning point. The turn hasn’t been fully made yet, I can stand at the hinge and savor the very feeling that I go back to this time of year.

I have acquired a new appreciation for the Fall season. I associate the fall with the times I had with an old friend. The feeling leaves me with a longing. And I feel nostalgic and empty. I try to explain it but I don’t even understand it.  It is exhilerating. A feeling of how horrible everything once was, assurance that it will be okay shortly and a sense of accomplishment when I look at the fact that I looked to God and not anything lower. Despite the awkwardness of the feeling, I like it when it comes around and when I can rest in it.

Aaron is and will remain all I have ever wanted, and then some, in a life partner. Every now and then we remind each other how much fun we are going to have together, and through everything even when it is not fun we will do together, and in 50 years how much closer we are going to be to God and to each other, how much more we are going to understand each other, the way God designed it. Secondary to Jesus, he is the best thing that has even happened to me.

I knew it, and I tried my best to hide it (he really wasn’t shy about his feelings). I had no person fooled.

Reflective moods are best at 3 A.M.

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5 days.

I believe that this is going to be the longest week of my life.

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12 days

12 more days of being a Spiker.

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3 weeks

Everything is begining to fall into place.

I love him.

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Can any bride relate? Can I get a witness?

Is this done? When do I have to call for this? When was I meeting with them? How is that coming? What was I doing this weekend again? What did I even do today? Did I forget anything? Are people happy?

These are some of the thoughts my mind is often racing with. I keep getting this gut feeling that I have forgotten something, or that something is wrong. I have loose ends and I hate having that feeling. 28 days…

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The Final Countdown!

One month and two days.

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Down to the wire.

Wedding things are starting to pick up again, I really wish I was not in school right now, But alas…

Now that I have a key to our house I have been going there more often. I love it. I can go there, wait for Aaron to come home, get some stuff done, do homework, and sit and veg. 🙂 When Aaron comes home from work, we eat and spend the evening together. When we have to say good-bye we say that it is going to be so much better when we are married! We won’t have to say good-bye!

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From the Heart: Because that is how I Live My Life.

Life currently is like a big stove. My ranges are full. My oven is occupied.

My house is simmering in a sturdy iron skillet. It is a dish that needs to be added to and added to, we keep getting more and more ingredients to make it just right.

School and work I put in random pots, they are dishes that can burn easily if not attended to, stirring, the correct utensils and temperature control is important.

My wedding is baking in my prettiest dish. It is similar to a big mystery casserole, everything is in it, dresses, appointments, emotions, deadlines, supplies, the layers mixed in and meshing together.

At times the kitchen gets pretty warm, other times it is smooth sailing. I do get breaks though, but it is never far from my mind. Hopefully, God can teach me somethings so I can help the next bride when she starts coming up with crazy illustrations like this!

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