There are no words to describe the way I feel right now. That’s not cliche.
For those who haven’t noticed, I have been struggling for some time (it’s not chronic, and I do not need drugs) and I was just about coming out of it, and this is the last straw that broke the camel’s back.
The barn burned down this weekend. The losses are too great to list and there are still items that are popping up in people’s minds. All of Brian’s goats are okay, along with the horse, sheep and cow. 8 out of 100 (or so) chickens were lost, 4 turkeys were lost, a good chunk of the barn cats were lost, Bikes, Logan’s tractor parts, Logan’s four-wheeler, Brian’s milking equipment, Thousands of dollars worth of hay and straw are gone, the goat barn is burned up, ugh, and the amount of tools and equipment lost is tremendous. My car is toast as well along with my tassel from graduation I had hanging in the window.
I had trouble expressing my feelings before because they ran so deep, but now, I can’t even think straight with all that as happened. Last night I was picturing the barn in my mind and knowing it was gone left it feeling surreal. And I am just on the outside of the family, so I can’t imagine how everyone else is feeling.
All earthly things seem pretty pointless right now. I go from bored, angry and depressed. And at other times I feel safe, calm and comfortable with my husband and his family. We are all together, healthy and safe. There is nothing left to do but move forward.
Thank You, Lord, for Our Home in Heaven!
Lauren Mae, my heart aches for you and Aaron and your family with all that you’ve lost. I can’t even begin to imagine what you are all going through. I am so glad that you do have our heavenly Father to go through this with you. I am praying for you along with everyone else at Fraser Rd. Please, please let me know if there is anything else that I can do to be of help. My cell phone is 415-3044.
With love & prayers,
Debbie
Thank you.
Very much. I think Sharyn Hine and Amanda Pawlicki are getting something together for aclean up day. An arson inspector still needs to come out and then we will plan a few clean-up days. Will let you know. 
Ok, that’s good to know. I will talk to Amanda & Sharon on Sunday.
Lauren Mae, we’ve been in touch with Wendy about coming out for a clean-up day as well. We have a group of girls and families who can help. So we’ll wait to hear after the insurance company finishes their job. We will never be able to express how bad we feel about all this! Yet we know that in God’s hands, nothing is wasted. Hang in there, dear sister in Christ. Better days are coming!